Christmas...Remembering Our Story

How easy it is for me to forget that Christmas is the season to remember the coming of the One for whom hundreds of generations waited with anticipation!

Here is a broad story line leading to the coming of our King and also how we hope as a family to remember God's story...given to us:

• He was in the beginning...
• God (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) created the Universe
• God created Adam and Eve
• Adam and Eve sinned against God--forever sinful offspring deserving judgment/and death resulted (THE FALL)
• God foretold the coming of Messiah even in the Fall. The One through whom deliverence of our sin would be offered.
• Adam and Eve's sinful offspring multiplied the earth and all people were wicked.
• God sent His judgment over the wicked through flooding the entire earth, but He spared Noah and his family.
• Noah's three sons, Ham, Shem, and Japheth multiplied the earth (Shem was blessed for honoring his father even when Noah sinned).
• God commanded the people to spread out and fill the earth. The people sinned against God and tried to remain in one place. They built a tower in order to make a name for themselves. God confused their languages forcing them to spread out and fill the earth as He originally commanded.
• From the east God chose Abram (a descendant of Shem) to be the man through whom He would send the Messiah.
• God called Abram to leave his homeland and family and move to a strange land which God would give him. He promised to bless him with many offspring and give him the land. Abram and his wife Sarah were old.
• Abraham believed God and his faith (belief and obedient response to his belief) was credited to him as righteousness...evidence that salvation has always been by faith in the Living God through grace.
• God kept His promises and Abram (Abraham) and Sarah had a son Isaac.
• Isaac had two sons: Esau and Jacob
• Jacob was chosen by God to be the family through whom He would send the Messiah.
• Jacob's name was changed to Israel.
• Israel's sons were
• Reuben
• Simeon
• Levi
• Judah (At the end of his life, Israel blessed Judah foretelling that the Messiah would come through him.)
• Issachar
• Zebulen
• Dan
• Joseph
• Benjamin
• Naphtali
• Gad
• Asher
• Joseph's brothers sold him into slavery. He went to Egypt. Through a chain of events Israel's family moved to Egypt...where they eventually became slaves for four hundred years as God foretold to Abraham.
• Israel multiplied into a large nation oppressed by Egypt. Each of the brother's families became large tribes.
• God delivered Israel through Moses (a Levite) and his family.
• God brought the Israelites through the wilderness. There God gave Moses the Ten Commandments (which are God's instructions for obedience to Him). The people sinned against God by worshipping an idol while Moses was Mount Sinai with God.
• God punished the people for their idolatry (something that is and always will be detestable to God).
• God reinstated the Ten Commandments and the Levitical law (the Levites became the priests).
• The covenant God made with Moses is reffered to as the Mosaic covenant. It is the covenant most call the Old Covenant.

 NOTE: Jesus later quotes from Leviticus when He says "Love your neighbor as yourself."

• The book of Numbers is mostly about God's organization of the people to  enter into and conquer the land which He promised Abraham.
• God sent spies into the promised land. When the men returned, only Joshua and Caleb believed that God could and would deliver the people from the current occupants of the land. Every other man doubted God and so did the people. God punished for their doubt and all of that generation perished in the wilderness. Joshua, Caleb, and the next generation lived to see the Promised Land.
• Moses re-gives the law to the new generation in Deuteronomy (hence the title...some say). He is addressing the families of Israel. NOTE: Jesus later quotes Deuteronomy when He says "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength."
• God instructs the people to build a Tabernacle...a place to meet with God. 
• Joshua was given the role of leadership when Moses died (Moses did not get to enter the promised land because of an act of disobedience). God led Joshua and Israel into the promised land...the place through which the Messiah would come.
• Instead of wholeheartedly obeying God, the people repeated sinned and turned to idolatrous ways.
• The book of Judges recounts the cycle of disobedience and deliverence of God's people:
• S in
• W rath
• O ppression
• R epentence
• D eliverence
• God sent judges to deliver the people. Famous judges were
• Deborah (Who went in the place of Barak because he was too afraid)
• Gideon
• Samson
• The story of Ruth occurs during the time of the judges.)
• Then Samuel (who was a prophet and judge...the last judge). Israel asked for a king during Samuel's time. God gave them...
• Saul  (But Saul did not follow God whole heartedly). God replaced Saul with David.
• David was of the tribe a Judah...the tribe through whom the Messiah would come. God established a covenant with David that his descendent would always be on the throne...the Messiah was His descendent...Jesus Christ. Like all people since Adam and Eve, however, David was a sinner and the consequences of His sin was a split kingdom.
• Many of the Psalms were written by and during the time of David...(but not all).
• Solomon, David's son took the throne after his father.
• God allows Solomon to build a solid Temple instead of Tabernacle. A place to meet with God.
• Many of the Proverbs were written by Solomon. As well as Ecclesiastes and Song of Solomon 
• God permantly writes His name in Jerusalem.
• Solomon's kingdom split after his death
• North (Israel)...all of whom were evil and idolatrous
• South (Judah)...some of whom followed God and some were evil and idolatrous.
• Most of the books of the prophets occur during the split-kingdom time period. They speak out against the people's idolatry and warn for centuries of God's impending judgment if the people do not repent. God pleads with the people to repent. He also foretells of the coming of the Messiah.
• Because of the idolatry of the people for generations, God sends both the North (captured by Assyria) and the South into captivity (Captured by Babylon). The Babylonians destroyed the Temple as God foretold would occur if His people were idolatrous.
• The Persian Empire ruled after the Babylonians just as God foretold through the prophets.
• Through Divine intervention God's people were allowed to return to their land through King Cyrus.
• The Book of Esther occurs during the Persian Empire.
• In the Book of Ezra the Temple is rebuilt.
• It is believed that Ezra wrote 1 and 2 Chronicles (orininally one book) to remind Judah of its history.
• In the Book of Nehemiah the wall around Jerusalem...God's city...was rebuilt. God's people are commanded once again to follow God with all their hearts.
• Haggai, Zechariah, Malachi prophesied during this time where they spoke out against the peoples rebellious heart and the coming of the Messiah...

Four hundred years of silence... The Roman Empire...the Jewish Nation oppressed by the Romans...but more deeply...all people oppressed by the inherited sin of Adam...all people in need of deliverance.

But God always keeps His promise. His promise to Adam, to Noah, to Abraham, to Israel, to you and me...God surprised sent the Messiah...His eternal Son...just like He said...out of Bethlehem.
 Then the Gospels (Good News) begin...the Messiah has come! The King is here! Fully God..Fully Man...miraculous...as a baby. born in a barn. Mother and adoptive father travel to Bethlehem for the census...they were of the tribe of Judah. And Jesus is born in Bethlehem.

"So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David." Luke 2:4

Scripture is so rich with infinately more details than what I mention today. Tonight Nathan and I will read Luke's account of Christ's coming...the Messiah. We read it every year together to remember God's story...the story He's allowed to be ours. We've always read it together on Christmas Eve in the past. But now that we are parents, and we will be with extended family on Christmas Eve (a time we cherish), we are going to begin having this family devotional time before we leave to go out of town.

Another family tradition that we've decided to include starting next year (even though Baby will only be about six months old) is the Jesse Tree. I first heard about the Jesse Tree from Laura Beth Moore. I've included a link to her blog which shares details about the tradition.  Here's the link if anyone is interested.  You can also just Google "Jesse Tree." I'm so excited about it because it is a way of celebrating the Advent season through a December overview of the story of the Old Testament leading up the birth of Christ. Each night the family decorates an ornament which represents an Old Testament Bible story from Genesis leading up to Jesus' birth. Exciting find!

Don't worry...I totally plan to include all of the imaginative, enchanting fun that the season brings to children...so does Nathan. He already says that if his kids want Christmas lights outside...they get them...even though none of our neighbors could see them from the road :)...but in the midst of the enchantment...we're praying that we all fall more and more in love with the Messiah...Jesus Christ...the one who has come to save us from our sinful nature. And that we remember the story...our story.

Merry Christmas!!!

Sniffles, Sneezes, Heartbeats, Nurse Hubby, and Family Time

The title pretty well sums up my week. I'm approaching the end of my first trimester (yay), and I can tell that I'm showing just a little.

Tuesday I substitute taught for one of my favorite children! She home schools, and I absolutely love seeing how she's learned. By the time I reached home, however, I felt achy and tired. Later that evening I was running a fever and the sickness began...whatever it was. I slept reclined in the living room for three nights running a low fever, sore throat, sneezing, and coughing, aching...the typical "crud."

Weeks like this one make me more thankful to be married to Nathan. His mom tells me he's a difficult patient (lol...I've never seen him sick), but he is an amazing nurse! He's also a pretty good chef. I think I drank about 12 orange juice slushies.

-About 1 cup of ice +
-About 1 1/2 cups of orange juice +
-3 peeled clementines +
-4 four strawberries +
-Mixed in the blender
= Delicious!

I think I might make one when I finish writing. :)

Wednesday in the midst of my little illness, Nathan and I got to hear one of the most amazing sounds God created: Baby's heartbeat. The doctor reassured me that my fever wasn't high enough to do any harm.

Friday my parents came for a little Christmas get together. My fever was gone by Friday morning, and I was able to open the windows and let the warm December breeze air out the living room while I disinfected the house. It was such a pretty day that I actually made another slushy and sat outside in the sunshine just for fun.

My mom brought my favorite soup: chicken and vegetable. Friday night we exchanged gifts. Well I'm excited to announce that I we now have a very nice, very new camcorder! Thank you Mama and Daddy!!! They gave us this special gift just in time for Baby. My mom made a good suggestion that I need to make sure and film family now so that our children can see what everyone looked like way back when...

So,

Thompson family: get ready for me to obnoxiously record The Twelve Days of Christmas
McCartha family: get ready for me to record Mamaw and Papaw opening their memory books!
Lauren: I will be recording you extensively. We'll make sure Baby knows her aunt via Skype and home videos. Just think our kids will think they're picking up a celebrity at the airport in December after watching you on TV all year!

Adoption Update: Please take one giant step forward...Please take two baby steps back.

Nathan and I took our first official step towards a China adoption last night. We attended the Discovery Bethany Adoption meeting in Atlanta. We basically made a date out of it and had a delightful time. We window shopped in Perimeter Mall...which means we looked at baby clothes in every store offering them. We went to what we expected to be an expensive Italian restaurant (and the only time we ate out all month) and ended up ordering two very inexpensive meals (Thank You Lord!) At 6:30 our long awaited meeting began. We both had butterflies.

The good news:
We were encouraged to see just how possible a China adoption is for us financially.

The disappointment:
We cannot begin the process until our baby (in my womb) is one year old. At first our hearts sunk. When Nathan and I got into the car later for our rainy drive home, the first thing I asked him is "Are you sad?" To which he replied emphatically "Yeah!"

We kind of envisioned the baby in my womb and our future adopted child being very close in age. We had it in our heads that we had 10 months until I turn 30 and we begin the process. During our hour drive, the Lord encouraged us. We're looking at it this way:

--Basically we have to wait about 5 more months than we anticipated to begin the paperwork. In the grand scheme of things that's not very long.
--Adoption is worth the wait. This is probably just the beginning of our waiting. Scripture mentions the importance of waiting on the Lord at least 20 times in just the Old Testament.
--China's rule for this baby to be one year old is not outlandish. In fact, no doubt God is at work in this process and He has something else in store for us as we parent the precious baby inside of me for the next 16 months. We are no doubt overjoyed to have this baby!

Last night I woke up at about 3:30 and couldn't go back to sleep because my mind was so consumed with all the "what ifs." Do you know the "what ifs" I'm talking about? You know as well as I the uncertainty of tomorrow when we forget God's sovereignty. Thankfully Philippians 4 raced through my head as well. I finally repeated in my mind over and over...."I trust You God. I trust You God. I trust You God." and fell back into a deep sleep.

Philippians 4: 4-7
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

I'm reading Jeremiah right now during my morning devotional time. Jeremiah's story is compelling. His time period was beyond difficult. Here are some passages that are gripping for me right now:


Jeremiah 9:23-24
Thus says the LORD,
“Let not the wise boast of their wisdom
or the strong boast of their strength
or the rich boast of their riches,
²⁴ but let the one who boasts boast about this:
that they have the understanding to know me,
that I am the LORD, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,”
declares the LORD.

Oh then let me boast! I know Him. I know He is good. I've tasted and seen His goodness. My mind fails me. Goodness knows I'm not all that strong...especially these pregnant days. :) God is good...always good. All His ways are right and just. And my little family is in His hands. Rich financially...well thank You Lord for Your blessings...but bank accounts can dwindle as quickly as they grow. But I know that my Redeemer lives:

" I know that my Redeemer lives,
and that in the end He will stand on the earth." Job 19:25

And because I have a Redeemer...I pursue adoption. Because I've been sought after and adopted...I pursue adoption. And I believe that it is an incredible gift for the baby in my womb as well. A beautiful picture. I spoke to a precious little girl today. She is seven years old and she told me today, "Did you know that there really are 140 million orphans out there. But if people would just adopt them they wouldn't be orphans anymore. You see her world view is different because she has experienced adoption herself and her eyes are open. I pray, oh how I pray the the baby inside me will echo similar words when he/she is seven.
Another meaningful verse:

Jeremiah 12:5
“If you have raced with men on foot
and they have worn you out,
how can you compete with horses?
If you stumble in safe country,
how will you manage in the thickets by the Jordan?"


I'm pregnant with my first child. I'm basically standing at the starting line of this race. I'm only in the beginning needing patience (or long suffering as I prefer to refer to it). I better position myself now in the Lord because this race has just begun.

So by and large the only ways that waiting affects us right now is that Art for Adoption has been post-poned until we begin the paper work next spring and our faith is being strengthened for His glory. Praise His name.

Hallelujah the King is Here!

Merry Christmas!!! I just finished the last of our Christmas decorations. Christmas music is now on the radio. These are some of the ones that cause me to blare the music and sing at the top of my lungs!!! Praise Him.

"Born in Bethlehem"  -Third Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKZ5g6a5Ehs


"This Baby"  -Steven Curtis Chapman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1wlZoN6h9M


"Welcome to Our World"  -Chris Rice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBGZeWYmOUM&feature=related

Daddy, Mommy...Meet Baby...

What a special day! Tuesday Nathan and I went for the first ultrasound. I can't quit staring at this picture. Isn't life a beautiful miracle! I thought: "He/she is beautiful!" The baby is the little white spot inside of the black crescent in the picture. The baby's head is at the top. We definately want to find out whether we have a boy or girl!

Psalm 139:13-16

For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you

when I was made in the secret place,

when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

¹⁶ Your eyes saw my unformed body;

all the days ordained for me were written in your book

before one of them came to be.

What a gift life is. I mean, yes, I am so blessed to be a mother. But what I really mean is what a blessing life is...your life, my life...every life. Do we cherish it as God's creation? Every person...every one. When I look at this picture, I think of GOD...the Holy One of Israel...the LORD. The One who created us for His glory.

I ordered two books for pregnancy: What to Expect When You're Expecting and another book about a healthy diet. Right now I'm reading the first and am really enjoying the information. I do get overwhelmed sometimes with wanting to make the healthiest choices; however, as I read these information and useful books...may I remember the Creator...the One who is Soveriegn over His creation. Yesterday after reading a section about polution and chemicals, I had to throw my hands up in the air in acknowledgement that this baby will be born into a broken fallen world. And even more than physical need, this baby has a spiritual need. He/she is in need of the Savior! I couldn't help but to surrender afresh this parenting journey and pray for His mercies and for His Spirit to be at work in his/her life from early childhood. And I pray that I simply will be in awe of the Creator, love Him, and love those He created.

Window Shopping with My Mama

My mom came to visit this weekend. This is the first time I've seen her since we found out that I'm pregnant. We've started a tradition of window shopping in Senoia on my birthday a few years ago. We thought about going to several other events this year (one of which was in Atlanta), but we decided that staying close to home was best for us...mainly for one reason...I've become WIMPY! I have a new TREMENDOUS respect for pregnancy and women who have experienced it...and if you're one of those women, I'm sorry if I didn't understand.  :) 

I'm the girl who last Spring planted not a few shrubs and trees in our yard, cut the grass, shoveled compost and transported it to fertilize plants. I walked miles. Ran miles. Stayed up late. Senoia's downtown mainstreet is maybe 1/4 a mile long. Yesterday, I sat down to rest four times from one end of the street to the other. I'm not kidding. We even went to the car one time to sit for a while. I have been feeling sick, but I mainly think it's because I have pretty strong allergies and cannot take my usual medicine for it. I'm even wondering if the nausea I've had is due partially to allergies.

If you have any suggestions for safely treating allergies, I'd love some ideas.

Our visit with my mom was wonderful though. I love spending time with my family. She was understanding and comforting.  We just sat on a bench or a rocking chair and talked between stores. We looked at some baby clothes and kid stuff and really just daydreamed about the future.

She and my Dad have a tiny 2.(something) pounds Yorkie puppy. She is adorable, and we also enjoyed watching our dogs play. She treated Nathan and me to lunch yesterday. We had the best fried green tomatoes we've ever eaten at "Redneck Cafe." This morning we had to drive into Peachtree City to pick up Pebbles (their Yorkie puppy...she had surgery yesterday) so we ate breakfast at a new Cajun bakery in Fayetteville...we love their food!!!

The only part about visiting with family that is hard is that we always hate to see them go. So of course, I talked to my mom a little on the phone while she was driving. :)

My Dad's Song Recorded in...yes...CHINESE!!

One thing about my Daddy that most of you know is that he is an amazing musician. We are so proud of him!!!!! He’s a published song writer, and again we (all of our family) are so proud of him. One of my favorite songs of his was introduced to Lauren and me two summers ago. The first time I heard it I cried. It has a beautiful melody and meaningful lyrics.

Last May, as Nathan and I were on our way home from church, we discussed how our hearts moved from concern over the nations and needs in our area and we how we had become too self-centered with our life goals. This conversation lent its way into a renewed focus as God’s Spirit convicted us of our neglect. This song renews that conviction each time I listen to it.

Recently, my mom sent me a video on youtube of this song in…yes…Chinese! A choral group from Baptist University in Hong Kong sang it. I think everyone in our family cried! To know that the song that my dad wrote sitting on his cozy glassed-in porch in the back of their house made it literally around the world (to the glory of God) into a culture that has become so dear to me. Of course when I hear this I think about the blessing of children that God has graciously given us. Of course I think about the child I cherish inside of me as well as the child (whom we believe will be from China) I cherish in my heart. I pray they will have a heart for Jesus and for His nations!  May you be blessed as you listen!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6sDzYZ8EZI&feature=share

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LYRICS IN ENGLISH;

WHAT FEAST WILL YOU BRING?

What feast will you bring?

Who will sit at your table?

Will you ask the broken, the hungry, the poor?

Will you seat them and feed them and show them by deed;

The love the Lord gives us is given to all.

To the feast will you bring the first fruits from your garden?

Will you bring from the cellar your most treasured wine?

Will you serve them on rarest white linen cloth,

With silver most cherished, most cherished and fine.

How will you heal the sick and the broken?

How will you feed the hungry and poor?

Will you give them the treasure laid up in your store room?

Will you open your heart and give even more?

What feast do you bring as Christ sits at your table?

Do you bring your first fruits and most treasured wine?

Do you serve them on rarest white linen cloth,

With silver most cherished and fine?

Do you see Christ in the sick and the broken?

Do you see Christ in the hungry and poor?

Will you give them the treasure laid up in your store room?

Open your heart and give even more?

“As you do unto them so you do unto me,”

Says Christ our Savior, our Lord and King.

Is your table set for the least of these?

What feast will you bring them?

What feast will you bring?

A Day to Celebrate...SURPRISE

Thank you everyone for your tremendous encouragement as we seek to adopt from China in the coming two years. We have had adoption on our hearts since we've been married. Please, please continue to pray towards that end as we believe that it is God's will for our family. He is in control and His plan prevails, but we are convinced that He has given us this desire.



AND



We are excited to announce that I am pregnant! Thank You Lord for Your blessings! My heart is so overwhelmed with gratitude. I have so much to share. So many thoughts, but first I'll tell you how everybody found out. Sunday evening I attended a church fellowship. As a church we are in the process of making significant missional and ministry decisions. I decided after breakfast to fast through lunch and supper over these decisions and how God would have us to be a part. Fasting is something that I believe God leads us to do from time to time; however, after church Sunday…after I made the decision to fast…I felt God clearly leading me not to. So I unpacked the very filling lunch that I made that morning and ate.



Early the next morning I took a pregnancy test (since I knew that it was about time to). It came back POSITIVE. I thought, “I’m so glad that I ate yesterday! Our little baby needed the food!!!!  God knew…what a miracle!!!” Nathan was still asleep and I really wanted to surprise him, so I tried with all my might to act normal through breakfast until he left for work. Later I called my doctor, talked to the nurse practitioner and set up an appointment. I went to the store, bought two more tests, a birthday card for Nathan (because his birthday is this week), and some brownie mix.


When I got home, I baked the brownies.


Then I wrapped the card in wax paper and taped around the edges so that it could be read and protected from getting dirty.

After I baked the brownies I placed the card underneath. I placed four candles into the brownies: white (representing Nathan), yellow (representing me), and a pink and blue (representing the baby…boy or girl).

I told Nathan on his way home that evening that I had a surprise for him each day of the week for his 30th b-day (I kind of told him this as an excuse for making brownies a week before). Waiting to get to dessert that night was soooo difficult. Finally, he cut into the brownies and found the card. The look on his excited face was priceless!

Then we had to decide how to announce to our family. We wanted to surprise them so we began planning trips to Scottsboro and Tallassee…BUT WHAT NATHAN DIDN’T KNOW IS THAT…


Since August, I’ve been planning a surprise 30^th family birthday party for him. I’m so excited that it was a success. Nathan’s parents and grandparents came, and he had no idea!!! (AND THEY HAD NO IDEA THAT I WAS PREGNANT) I planned it so that everyone except me would stand in front of the piano in the living room. I would stand in the kitchen as usual preparing our supper plates. The family parked in our neighbors driveway ( I need to explain that our country neighbor is a half a mile away with a very thick layer of planted pines that block us from seeing each other at all.) Nathan would walk in the door and around the corner to change clothes before supper…then SURPRISE…


BUT


He didn’t round the corner at all. He was fixated on talking to me, some birthday cards that came in the mail, and on supper. He walked in the door and said, “Well hey there Mommy! How are you feeling?...(read a birthday card from my parents which mentioned praying for our baby-to-be) Oh!!! How sweet! Are they talking about our baby from China or our baby in your tummy?



HE HAD NO IDEA THAT HIS FAMILY WAS IN THE LIVING ROOM, which I think is hysterical. I just knew that they would let out a squeal of excitement, but it turned out that they didn’t hear a word he said. So finally I turned Nathan’s face to the living room because he was about to sit at the table. Oh the grin on his face when he saw everyone. He said I got him so good. But the fun wasn’t over. Then I said, “Oh no!!! I forgot to call my parents to let them in!” So I dialed, put them on speaker phone and said, “Sorry guys, I forgot to call you but Nathan’s hear now…Nathan why don’t you tell them what you wished for your birthday?”  Then Nathan announced: “ For a healthy pregnancy. We’re having a baby!”

I have my parents on speaker phone. They were soooo excited!!!

We are overwhelmed with the Lord’s loving kindness and his mercy. We are thrilled and humbled. Now as I take prenatal vitamins to nurture this child, I pray over his/her soul, and I pray for the child we believe we’ll adopt. When I rest or take it easy because pregnancy has me tired, I think about how God created and equipped this body he gave me to nurture and love this baby even before he/she is born. And I pray for him. I pray also for the baby we desire to adopt. I pray for their sibling relationship. We pray they are drawn to the Gospel from a young age. We pray for wisdom, gentleness, and patience in parenting because that ability can only come from Him. And we thank Him.

Let the Adoption Fundraising Begin...A Quick Update

I have a quick update. There is so much to this story (so many answered prayers) that I can share later, but here I will be brief.

Praises to God #1 and 2
Many of you know that Nathan has a 98 Toyota Tacoma that is steady and faithful :)...but it has over 200,000 miles and if it decides to "kick the bucket" we really believe he'll need another vehicle given where we live. Praise the Lord...we have a small vehicle emergancy fund complete! Now we can focus on saving for the adoption of our future child. We already have some (emphasis on "some") saved as of this month!!!!!!!

So far, I'm painting, ironing, babysitting, substitute teaching for our church's weekday program (we're at New Hope...another good story for later), couponing, and doing anything else raise money. (So if you live in the same area as me and need a babysitter, someone to iron or clean...call or send me a message :)

If you know anyone who wants to purchase a horse...we have three for sale...send them our way. I particularly love Nitro and Dudley. They are very sweet horses.

Praise to God #3
We know that we will go through Bethany Christian Services

Praise to God #4
We're attending our first meeting December 6th in Atlanta!
The next step for us besides saving money is attending an informational meeting about international adoptions. I think its also worth mentioning that this meeting just happens to be on a Tuesday (Nathan's day off of work) so we can both attend!!!

Beginning an Adoption Journey

The reason I haven't posted in almost a month is that we've been sharing with family what God is calling us to do. I have so much updating to do that I feel overwhelmed with the idea of posting...here goes.

Nathan and I have said for a long time that one day we would like to adopt. We also believed that we are to adopt from China first. We sense God telling us that the "one day" is approaching. A flood of emotions burst through me when I say these words. If I were sitting with you in person sharing our desire then inevitably I'd be in tears (sharing out loud does that to me).

We are adopting.

Part of my tears come from the fact that as of today, we do not have the money. How amazing that God gives us desires to do things beyond our reach. His arm is not too short! Don't get me wrong, I am more than blessed with a wonderful husband who works extremely hard. He is responsible with money and is a man after God's heart. He is a man of integrity and keeps his word to the best of his ability. I know...I live with him. Oh I am so blessed. Please don't interpret this as pouting, but we want to adopt and do not have the financial resources to do so as of today. This in and of itself is a blessing...because in the next year we get to see God work. I will keep you updated. I ask...no I BEG...please pray for us as we seek His will.

We wait for God. We do not wait idly, however. We are not spending our usual amount of money waiting for God to send the check in the mail...Although we would certainly welcome Him to send one ;) We are saving all that we can and selling all that we can. As in I'm wrapping pennies, couponing, saying "no" to purchases I can survive without, scrupulously counting the miles on my vehicle, and planning my schedule so that I do the least amount of driving possible. And Nathan HE IS SELLING HIS HORSES for this season. Um if you know him, you know the depth of sacrifice this is for him. Why do it?

Because one day...Oh one day Nathan and I will hold an orphaned child in our arms, give them a new name...Thompson, forever love them as our child, and introduce them to their Lord and Savior. Just as my Heavenly Father took me in through the saving grace of Jesus Christ, gave me a new name, and forever loves me as His child. For some reason, He chose to redeem my frail and feeble...down right depraved soul...and adopt me as His child. (Ephesians 1).

I should also share that we aren't adopting because of infertility. We would rejoice to find out I am pregnant. What a blessing that would be! We believe that God is calling us to be an adoptive family in addition to having children naturally (should He choose to give them to us). To say "God is calling" is an intense statement. From where else would such deep longings come? Nathan said to me the other day, "I process things differently than you. Most of the time I make a decision and carry through because I believe that it is the right decision. But when I tell people about this decision...I get excited. I can't wait to hold our child."

So will you pray for us? Will you pray for this process? Pray for guidance, wisdom. Please pray that God will increase our faith and give us energy and creativity to raise funds. Thank you.

Jewelry

Okay, as you look at these photos...you will notice that they are taken with my phone. I'm just going to say "Thank You God for a phone with a camera." That's all I'm going to say about cameras...except that I apologize that the pictures are so blurry.

I am hosting an "African Jewelry Party" Sunday, October 9th. The jewelry is handcrafted from Uganda. I recieved the jewelry in the mail today. Let me just say, every piece is absolutely beautiful and very reasonably priced. All of the profit is sent directly to the ladies who created the collection. Most of you know that I'm an amateur (at best) at hostessing! I sent some invitations via facebook and several through the mail both of which were sent from a very incomplete list. So I've decided to invite you personally through my blog. If you'd like to come, just let me know, and I'll email you directions to my house. You can also order jewelry without coming to the party. Just let me know if you're interested.

I really hate the my camera simply doesn't show how pretty each piece is, but at least this gives you an idea.

Single Bead Earrings are  $5.00.
Hoop Earrings are $10.00.

Bracelets are $5.00 each.

Bean Necklaces are $10.00 each.

Long mixed bead paper necklaces are $15.00 each.

Tree Seed Necklaces are $10.00 each.

Three string paper bead necklaces are $15.00 each.

Small paper bead necklaces are $15.00 each.

This Time

If there is one thing I savor these days, it is time. I'm actually sitting in our recliner listening to the rain sprinkle the metal on our chimney. I have time to listen these days. I trimmed the rose and butterfly bushes yesterday. I have time to smell and adore their beauty...and thank God for grass and shrubs. Tuesday is Nathan's day off so he's been home. We sat on our front porch today and talked...really talked. I have time to listen. What I've been most excited about is that I have time for a project I've put off since I left TES in 2008: transcribing recordings of my grandmother's storytelling.

My grandmother was a teacher. Her name is Ida Gray Wilson. We called her "Boppie." She was one of the most creative and confident women. She savored learning. Loved to learn...as in, she loved brick mailboxes so she registered for classes in brick masonry and built one for herself. She could sew or cook ANYTHING. She passionately loved the Lord and loved His Word. Sometime in the late 70s she bought a quaint little house in Montgomery and opened a private school: Gray Wilson School. Boppie taught 1st-2nd grade (which sometimes included kindergarten age students if they were ready) and Mrs. Gibson taught 3rd-4th grade.

She died of cancer in May of 2003. I recieved Christ when I was a student in her classroom in 1988-89, my Kindergarten year. I guess most of you reading this know that she was and is more than special to me. Sometimes her death makes me cry. I haven't struggled with grief today. Strangely, I've not struggled with listening to these recordings today. I'm soooooo grateful for the time I have to transcribe them. Thank You Lord for your many gracious gifts. And thank you Nathan for wanting me to be a stay at home wife for this season. Hmmm...the rain and thunder outside sounds so nice. I'm reminded of the hymn Nathan and I chose to be played as I walked the aisle our wedding day:

For the beauty of the earth,
for the beauty of the skies,
for the love which from our birth,
over and and around us lies,
Lord of all to Thee we raise,
This our hymn of grateful praise.

For the beauty of each hour
Of the day and of the night
Hill and vale and tree and flower;
Sun and moon and stars of light;
Lord of all to Thee we raise;
This our hymn of grateful praise.

For the joy of human love;
Brother, sister, parent, child;
Friends on earth and friends above;
For all gentle thoughts and mild;
Lord of all to Thee we raise;
This our hymn of grateful praise.

For Thyself best Gift Divine!
To our race so freely given;
For that great great love of Thine
Peace on earth and joy in Heaven.
Lord of all to Thee we raise,
This our hymn of grateful praise.

Amen.

And goodnight. :)

My Kind of Saturday Shopping

Randy and Denise (Nathan's parents) came to visit this weekend. The four of us left early Saturday morning to eat breakfast at Red Door Cafe (think country...rural...homeade sausage...homeade biscuits). Nathan and his dad went home and rode horses. Denise and I drove to Peachtree City to participate in my fairly new found hobby...yardsales.

When Nathan and I moved to Peachtree City, there were several pieces of furniture that we wanted for our home but we didn't want to spend money on furniture store prices. Thankfully we met Berry and Doris across the street. During our first conversation, I risked seeing their potential reaction and popped the question: "Do y'all ever see any yardsales in this area?" To my penny-pinching-delight, they smiled and replied "If you like yardsales then you should know this is the yardsale capital of the world!" I can forever thank Berry and Doris for teaching me the ins and outs of Peachtree City yardsaling. What a fun game!

• Peachtree City yardsales are EVERYWHERE on the weekends.
• Around Thursday you begin to see uniform signs pop up. Citizens have to buy the signs at City Hall. All yardsales are advertised uniformly. This keeps the town attractive, and also helps train my eyes to find these little treasure chests!
• The sales usually begin at 8:00...and that means 8:00!
• You can almost always count on finding great stuff.

We found

• an elaborate iron hose holder
• two natural looking topiaries
• a box full of Christmas red berries. (I have to share the price on this one because I ended up keeping most of them...the whole box was $3.00!)
• a little antique purse

A little later we visited the Junkin Junction...a flea market near home. We found three nice books for 25 cents a piece. But my favorite treasure of the day...

• My Cedar Arbor for an extremely little amount of money. I can't wait to transplant my climbing roses beside it.

We found some really good deals and came home very happy; I learned how to bargain from Denise; and we made a fun memory...My kind of Saturday shopping.

Truth Be Told

Right now I've pulled about five books off of my shelf that I'm looking forward to reading. I'm trying to patiently get through each one with out skipping back and forth, but I admit that I've read the first chapter of three of the books. Today my selection is Continuous Revival by Norman Grubb. The small 55 page book was given to us about five years ago.  Grubb explains how continuous revival comes through walking in the Spirit (concerning ourselves with moment-by-moment surrender to God), brokenness (which he describes as "the proud, self-justifying, self-reliant, self-seeking, self has come simply as a lost, undone sinner, whose only hope is a justifying Savior" p15). We are cleansed by the blood that Jesus shed as we repent and surrender to Him.  Now I'm in the chapter called "Conviction, Confession, and Cleansing."

Allow me to quote this excert because as Nathan and I search for "direction," I'm becoming more and more aware of how I sometimes walk around the truth. I don't always look at myself plainly...because it hurts:
Sin is a revelation. It is God who graciously shows us sin, even as it is He who shows us the precious blood. Sin is only seen to be SIN-against God-when He reveals it; otherwise sin may just be known as a wrong against a brother, or an antisocial act, or an inconvenience, or a disability, or some such thing. Indeed that is often the extent of the message of a "social gospel"---to be rid of sin as a hindrance to brotherhood, as an inconvenience to human progress, not as coming short of the glory of God. GOD shows us sin. We do not keep looking inside ourselves. This is not a life of introspection or morbid self-examination. We do not walk with sin, we walk with Jesus; but, as we walk in childlike faith and fellowship with Him step by step, moment by moment, then if the cups cease to run over, He who is light, with whom we are walking, will clearly show us what the sin is which is hindering--what its real name is in His sight, rather than the pseudonym, the excusing title, which we might find it more convenient to call it......As we walk in light, we recognize and confess our sins; the blood cleanses; the Spirit witnesses; and the cups run over again!

I've begun (once again...and again...and again) to ask God to reveal to me my false perceptions...what lies have I told myself because I can't bear to look at my sin? How have I run from He who is Light (and so much more)? I'm working through my theology in so many aspects and know full well that I will NEVER understand God. Instead of reading straight through the Bible, right now I'm reading Genesis through 2 Kings and inserting the books of Chronicles, poetry, wisdom, and Prophets as they fit within in the Narrative. Very rich! What God saysHe will do, He does. He said He would split the Kingdom because of Solomon's idolatry, and He did. He said He would give the Northern Kingdom to Jeroboam, and He did. But Jeroboam's statement in 1 Kings 12 strikes me very very personally:

He begins to worry about losing "his control" (ha ha...God placed him in leadership in the previous two chapters)
Then Jeroboam built Shechem  in the hill country of Ephraim, and lived there. And he went out from there and built Penuel. Jeroboam said in his heart, "Now the kingdom will return to the house of David. If this people go up to offer sacrifices in the house of the LORD at Jerusalem, then the heart of this people will return to their lord, even to Rehoboam king of Judah; and they will kill me and return to Rehoboam king of Judah." So the king consulted, and made two golden calves, and he said to them, "It is too much for you to go up to Jerusalem; behold your gods, O Israel, that brought you up from the land of Egypt.

What does Grubb's book and Jeroboam's folly have in common with me? Just this:

Grubb is teaching from Scripture that our discipleship in Christ is a moment by moment journey of trust and surrender to His leading. WE DO NOT KNOW THE FUTURE. I don't believe I should be foolish and not be responsible enough to plan...BUT there is a BIG difference between "planning" and "attempting to control." When my plans shift from being a good steward of time, relationships, and resources to attempting to manipulate my situation...then I'm in danger of Jeroboam's sin. Jeroboam resolved to do anything to save face (literally and figuratively) to the point of making up a complete lie and probably...probably believing it himself.

So I'm asking God to shed light on my intentions (again). Scary isn't it? But here goes...I have nothing to lose in surrendering to His light but my pride...but I lose everything in believing lies.

Striving after Wind, Broken Dreams, Letting Go...God is good.

"Just as you do not know the path of the wind and how bones are formed in the womb of the pregnant woman, so you do not know the activity of God who makes all things." Ecclesiastes 10:5

I've been a terrible blogger thus far...very sporadic in my postings and quite private really. Today is different, however. Today I'm going to share my life. Today I'm not doing what I thought I'd be doing a month ago. Today I'm far from where I thought I'd be four years ago. Heavens...when I really think about it, 10 years ago I did not even know my husband and 90% of the people with whom I converse on a daily basis! Crazy isn't it...how life changes? Crazier still how I think arrogantly that I can plan my life (as if it's really mine and not my Creator's...created for His glory and His purpose)!

I love to plan, daydream, idealize (love is a strong word and I use it intentionally). I really love to pretend I control my life. It's a sickness that's been diagnosed called Sin. No I don't mean that planning, daydreaming, and idealizing is sinful. I mean that falsely believing that I control turning my dreams into reality is sinful. What's happened in the last month has caused me to see that sometimes, just like the wind, His Spirit sends us in one direction and then changes direction. Right now I feel like I'm spinning. I'm confused, but HE IS NOT. I'm not spinning at random. I'm in His grip. But I'm really praying for clear "direction." Okay, do you want to know what's been going on?

Before I share my conflict, let me testify to God's clear leading in my past. I'll start with leaving sweet home Alabama. I sat under Steve Scoggins' teaching for 7 years (from 18-25 years old). Nathan and I never ever questioned if we were supposed to be at our church. It was our home. Really when I look back I've learned that true relationships are God's working. He brought us into strong relationships, strong Bible teaching. We had clear direction, and I praise Him for it.

God alone brought me to seminary. He placed the desire in my heart to be trained in Bible study and sharpened in mininstry. He gave me clear direction and graciously allowed me to finish the master's degree in the precious Biblical languages.

God moved us to Georgia. I've doubted that at times, but when I look back at my prayer journal I know that He brought us to Georgia. I can't say enough about the blessing of Nathan's job. I can't say enough...but I will some...He works for a God-fearing, faith-filled, honest, fair, merciful, kind Christian man, Dr. Bagget. He also works with Dr. Rickard, a fifty-something Spirit-filled wise man...a father-ish type mentor. Honestly, he's the kind of person that when Nathan and I are discussing something...I find myself asking him "What does Dr. Rickard say about it?" He also has a great working relationship with everyone else at the clinic. We love Braelinn Animal Hospital. And the Kirby's...God bless the Kirby's! Hugh and Mary Lynn! They opened their home immediately. Goodness I could go on and on about the people who have loved us for the past three years. My goal is not to bore you. I just can't share a struggle without sharing praises also!

But the past three years have not been the clean-cut path we had back in Alabama. I've not attended the same church, worked the same job, and lived by a neat schedule. I've studied late (I'm a morning person), carried up to four part time jobs, faught fetige that I think caused the strange heart palpitations. Nathan and I have learned big lessons (some of them through our sin and mistakes, some through other's sin and mistakes, some through triumphs by the grace of God). I've felt the the effects of irreversible time. Two years ago in the midst of all the changes (some of which I'm not going to share), I did what I do best...evaluated my life, evaluated my situation, and came to the logical conclusion that I should pursue a PhD. Then I concluded that yes God was leading me to pursue a doctorate for several reasons. First, I dream of seeing church families more passionate about God than SEC football (don't get me wrong...I'm a AU girl...I'm thrilled when the Tigers win...but really there's a time and place...moderation, fellow Southerners, moderation). Secondly, I want to see God's people love God's Word. Thirdly, I enjoy studying and writing. Fourthly, I felt led and saw a need for Biblical strengthening in family and children's ministry. Fifthly, (to be completely transparent) well...no I just can't be right now...maybe later. 

Here's the deal. God COMPLETELY opened the doors! By this cliche I mean that I looked at the leveling work....all the classes I needed were offered before I was scheduled to graduate with my masters. God MIRACULOUSLY enabled me to score high enough on the GRE. Deadline after deadline He ushered me through with "clear" guidance. My beloved professors encouraged me because there is great need for further study in the area of family and children's ministry, and I'm young and have a lot to give.

I felt needed...purposeful...clearly directed...

I went through an interview process and one of the professors encouraged me greatly. Ahhh...stability.
Then I was accepted. God provided tuition. I ordered my books. I registered for my classes.

BUT

All the while I kept sensing something...Am I pursuing a doctorate because I think that the seminary is my stability? Am I afraid of pursuing relationships? Am I pursuing a doctorate because I think I can succeed at school...I failed in relationships...at least I'll have somthing to show for my life...all things considered I haven't succeeded in very much other than my academic pursuits...but I haven't really tried much else either. Then I pushed those thoughts out of my head...thoughts can be hard to discern you know..especially since opinions abound in variety. No, God has opened the door. I'll have new opportunity and He will do so much through this...I can be an advocate for the cause of children. So I began to plead with God to close the opportunity for me somehow if that is what He wanted. I didn't want to make the decision.

Then two days before class was supposed to began I recieved a syllabus from one of my professors. I need to explain that I always felt a rush of exileration when I looked at syllabi for the first time in the past. I value learning. I love to sit in solitude a read a book...write a paper. This time the four page feather-lite syllabus felt like a boulder.

At the time I was reading through Psalms...Of course as He would have it the next Psalm was 73. Here is an excert from my journal that day:

-A doctorate will not validate my worth.
If I give up the doctorate...I'll be tempted by other thoughts...
-Beauty will not validate my worth.
-Marriage will not validate my worth.
-Children will not validate my worth.
-Friends will not validate my worth.
-Family will not validate my worth.
-A career will not validate my worth.
-MINISTRY will not validate my worth.

Psalm 73:25
"Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

So here I am. No more school. No church home right now. No idea where God is taking me.

I just want to be obedient...to love God with all my being and love my neigbor as myself. I'm praying He'll give us community and a love for people like I've never had. A love that says:

"I love people...not their acceptance of me." Because the later has been my downfall in years past. I no longer want to conform...I don't know if that makes sense.

He is faithful as ALWAYS to speak to me through His Word. I'm in Ecclesiastes now. So timely right? In the midst of changing winds...Solomon warns over and over and over....that we can waste our life chasing the wind. There is so much I don't know...we honestly don't know of which church family to join. So so much I want to see happen in my lifetime....

But I will declare publically today that I believe in our Soveriegn and Good God. He determines what is good and purposeful in my life. May I surrender afresh to Him today...draw near to Him...and cease striving after wind.

I want to be a better blogger and update better. Please pray for His wisdom over us. Blessings.

Friendship in 1993

I have a tendancy lately to post memories. A few weeks ago I visited Mamaw in Friendship and Papaw in the V.A. Nursing Home in Alex City. I wondered through their house (which really hasn't changed much during my lifetime) and thought how tragic it would be to forget their contribution to my childhood. Below is my memory of a typical weekend spent with them. I love them both so much.


Frienship in 1993

Lauren and I considered Mamaw and Papaw’s to be another home. Not much was off limits—what was theirs was ours. They were quite patient with us. As an adult I recognize their place was an open door of learning opportunities—a smorgasbord for the senses, unending exploration for the imagination—in Friendship, Alabama. Mama dropped us off on Friday afternoon with our purple duffle bags that said in gold “Tallassee Tigers” with a gold tiger paw underneath (which came from “Tiger Paws” downtown). Lauren had an array of dolls and animals: Molly and Jelly Bear for certain…and any other toy she could carry. I may have Samantha (Molly and Samantha were our American Girl dolls) and a few other toys but for certain I brought my hot pink Caboodle with a purple handle (I was an aspiring teenager from preschool). The Caboodle carried Teen Spirit deodorant, Cover Girl powder, a curling iron, and Lip Smackers Chap Stick. Mama pulled her silver Volvo station wagon into the driveway around the pool privacy fence around the carport right next to the fig trees. Fig trees with the sweetest plump figs you could eat. To the front was a large Magnolia tree with sweet smelling large white blossoms. Its branches were perfect for climbing--a common tree attribute on their farm. Underneath the Magnolia was a stone sidewalk leading to the front porch. In front of the fig trees was a raised brick flower bed with old fashioned roses from Grandmother Funderburk (her mother). Mamaw spoke fondly of her mother. Lauren and I thought fondly of her too.

Fortunately Grandmother Funderburk made an extensive scrapbook filled with pictures and paraphernalia. Mamaw, Lauren and I spent hours looking through her scrapbook (that aunt Nita eventually had laminated) and listening to Mamaw’s stories of driving the family’s model T, riding the family mule, and climbing trees with our great Uncle Charles on their home place about two miles away.

 To the right of the station wagon behind the fig trees was the cotton field and Papaw humming down the rows on his tractor. At 69 he was still farming strong. Off in the distance we could see the Milners brick house. And the long dirt road that carried us to Mamaw and Papaw’s “back place” where we also used to live. Beside the last fig tree was a homemade bird feeder.

Bird food was left over cornbread and other scraps—she had the best fed birds in Alabama. Nathan and I estimate that Mamaw has probably cooked at least 20000 pans of cornbread in her lifetime –no hyperbole- a conservative estimation.

The feeder was a hub cap perched on a fence post. To our left was their house—built by Papaw—which was remodeled and bricked before I was born. Four big windows were on the left side. The back window had another bird feeder shaped like a house that hung from the eve. The birds were practically pets! She kept a bird watching book on Papaws desk in the den. The back of the house had a covered patio. The entrance had screen door. The wooden door was painted yellow. The wood on the screen door was the same. In the window next to the door we could see the curtains with little sail boats. The patio had 2 metal lawn chairs and a little bench that my dad made. Every year Mamaw painted them (throughout my childhood they were several colors). But my favorite part of the patio was the little wooden swing that hung from the ceiling. Mamaw told me that it originally hung at the appropriate height for adults but she lowered it so it would be the perfect height for the grandchildren.

And they had a slew of grandchildren. First were Lisa and Laura (whom they lovingly called the “first crop”). Then came the “second crop”: me (Katherine), Will, Jay, Lauren, Grant (I can’t remember between the two who was born first).

Mamaw and Papaw lowered the swing so that a small child could sit down easily. From the patio was a very large carport. Large enough for their car and truck as well as a picnic table barrels for dog and cat food, a shelves with truck supplies, wheel bearer, and three bicycles: mine, Lauren’s, and best of all my daddy’s childhood bike (red with silver fenders). We kept our bicycles there because Mamaw and Papaw had the very best place to ride bikes. In between the patio and car port was a stone walkway filled-in with gravel. In the front corner of the carport were the dog’s water bowl and an old metal water pump. Behind the carport was the pool. Oh the pool! What Papaw said when we visited him in the V.A. nursing home a few weeks ago was perfectly true: “That pool was a good-un; got a lot of use out of it.” We sure did… and a lot of memories too. It was an in-ground pool with another large patio, a diving board (where I learned to dive), and a concrete walk-way all around. They had gravel poured around the walkway and a privacy fence. The gravel served as the perfect place to gather a rock collection.

Lauren and I were not the first to discover this. Stephanie, Charlie, Lisa and Laura were amongst the first. They took some of the rocks and painted pictures on them. The Second Crop of kids excavated the art. (When I was really young I thought they were natural.)

There was a flower bed between the carport and pool patio. I remember the plants were tall with pretty orange blooms. My mom says they were Cannas. Beside the corner of the carport and the pool patio was a large pear tree, not good for climbing but perfect for making pear preserves. Mamaw made fig, pear, and blackberry preserves every year. Wild blackberries grew all around! The cotton field curved behind the pool. Lauren and I grabbed our duffle bags and paraphernalia and crunched along the gravel toward the patio. The back door was open with the screen door closed and latched with a small hook. We walked up to the door and called for Mamaw. She walked from the kitchen on the right into the “utility room” to let us in. “Well, well, look who’s here,” she said as she opened the screen door and gave us a hug. She need not instruct us—we made our way straight to the front bedroom: through the utility room to the right into the kitchen and then down the L shaped hallway—the bedroom on the right and bathroom on the left. Mamaw and Papaw’s utility room was large with a half bath on the left (where Papaw shaved), a washer and dryer on the right with a utility sink in between.

It was this sink where Mamaw played beauty parlor with Lauren and me. We lay flat on the dryer with our head over the sink. Mamaw washed our hair with the sprayer (which I thought was so much fun), comb it out VERY slowly so that not ONE tangle hurt. Then…oh then…she would pull out her hair dryer. The hair dryer was placed on the kitchen table. It was the kind they have in salons that we pulled over our head like a helmet—so cool! Then of course Lauren and I traveled down the hall to the big bathroom which had a built-in make up counter. In the drawer Mamaw kept her nail polish—Lauren and I painted away.

The back of the utility room had a large deep freezer where they kept all of their frozen vegetables from the garden, ice cream, sherbet, and bacon. Their house always smelled of fresh vegetables (peas, turnip greens, and green beans), sausage, biscuits, and cornbread: a conglomeration of all of the meals Mamaw cooked daily. Mamaw cooked a variety of meals but my favorite included: homemade biscuits, sausage and eggs, French toast and syrup, cornbread, roast beef, potato salad, homemade corn dogs, chicken and dumplings, meatloaf, cubed steak and gravy. The kitchen had three windows. One was over the sink in between the cabinets. Here Mamaw kept her aloe plant. She broke a piece for Lauren and me and we played with the gelled inside and rubbed the aloe on our hands. The next wall had two windows. The kitchen table set in between the windows. One side of the table had a bench. The grandkids always sat on the bench—gladly! I was an early riser so I awoke with Papaw early and ate a bowl of cereal: Cornflakes, Fruit Loops, or Rice Crispies. He went to work outside. I sat in the den and watched Nick Jr. (Yes, I was an innocent 10-year-old aspiring teenager). At about 7:00 or 7:30 Mamaw cooked a big breakfast. She baked biscuits every day. She usually gave Lauren and me a piece of dough to play with. Mamaw also pulled out her electric skillet and cooked French toast which we ate until even sitting was uncomfortable we were so full. She used thick bread because she said it cooked better.

Mamaw started cooking French toast for us when I was in the first grade. When I was seven, I traveled with Mamaw and Papaw to Washington DC during Spring Break (although I think we called it AEA week back then). It was my first time flying in an air plane. Boarding the delta plan from the Montgomery Airport was a dream. Mamaw later said that she was afraid that I would cry during the flight out of fear and discomfort but no such thing occurred. What she didn’t know is that for at least the past four years of my childhood I stared from my backyard in amazement at the planes flying overhead. How neat would it be to get their view of the world! So the plane ride in and of itself was enough to make my entire year! But in addition to the plane ride—I was traveling to our nation’s capital. Several educational videos prepared me for the trip—my favorite was “American School House Rock.” If your familiar with the songs then you know I could wait to visit “Capitol Hill” where the pass “Bill”s. From books I read about famous Presidents I was thrilled to visit all of the monuments and memorials. So we boarded the plane—I with my very own pink and purple camera (from which I took all of my own pictures…much to everyone’s regret) and my mother’s childhood stuffed animal “Pepper” the dog. I stared out of the window the entire flight. (I’m still enthralled by planes and jets…I just have to take Dramamine today to conquer the flight without a green face.) Anyone who has traveled with me to a rich location full of famous sights knows that I get so excited that I zoom like a bullet from one sight to the next. I think I kept Mamaw in a state of panic. She couldn’t keep up with me. They never lost their patience though. They just laughed because they know I was soaking in every patriotic moment. Papaw attended a meeting for farmers. Then we went sightseeing: memorials, monuments, museums, the Capital building, and the White House. We saw President Bush (Senior)’s helicopter land on the White House front lawn. Back then you could walk up to the fence (I stuck my hand through the fence and touched the grass). On the plane ride home they fed us breakfast. I asked Mamaw what my breakfast was called, “French Toast” she said. I told her I loved it. So she always cooked French toast for Lauren and me.

Lauren and I sat on the bench, watched her cook, and talked about our adventures in the Capital City. After breakfast we decided if we wanted to play inside or outside first. We stuck together most of our time on their farm. Mamaw kept her homemade desserts (which could be caramel cake, divinity, pies, cobbler, or blueberry muffins)in the dining room, which regular dining room furniture and an antique wooden radio that still worked.

Lauren and I dressed in outfits from Mamaw’s old clothes closet and wore her shoes. We pretended to live in the 1940s. That era always fascinated me. I suppose we liked the family pictures during that time…Mamaw and Papaw’s wedding picture with Papaw in his uniform and Mamaw’s stories. We pretended that we lived back then. We made our house in the foyer by the living room. This room was perfect because we didn’t have to clean up. It was out of the way, except when Mamaw carried her peas and pecans to the front porch to shell. Then we’d join her outside and help. We all sat together, shelled, and watched the cars go by. We played a game. Mamaw, Lauren, and me each chose a color. Whoever was first to see five cars in their color won the game.

In the front bedroom Mamaw kept her cloth and sewing materials. We put together sewing projects—mainly pillows and dolls. I’m amazed at how patient she was with us and generous. She never restricted how much of her materials we used. She delighted in our creations. The back bedroom had a King sized bed. Mamaw, Lauren, and I slept in that bed when we stayed overnight. We took turns telling stories. We always told “The Three Bears” and “The Three Little Pigs.” The king size bed also transformed into a magnificent stage. When the second crop was together we performed many plays. It was not uncommon for kids to go through an unfriendly Junior High stage. Not our cousins. They were always kind—always! They came from Birmingham AL and Columbus GA. All of us together added to the enchantment of Friendship.

In the den we played at Papaw’s desk. There we found typing paper, crayons, markers, a typewriter, and printing calculator, stapler, scissors, and tape. Underneath the TV cabinet Mamaw kept her catalogs. Sometimes Lauren and I would play office. Sometimes I would write and illustrate storybooks. I may draw the illustrations or I would cut the pictures out of catalogs and tape them together.

After Mamaw cooked breakfast and cleaned the house she would sit in the font bedroom queen bed and read “Dear Abby” and the comic strips. We read these with her, lying on our backs with one leg propped on the other knee. Then it was time for a midmorning snack. The three of us headed to the kitchen to make a milk shake, talk about life: school mostly. We told Mamaw about our friends (she always knew them because they came to play and swim), what teachers we wished to have the following school year, funny stories from the previous year. Lauren and I washed our glasses and went outside.

The other side of the house was where we explored. Next door to Mamaw and Papaw was the white house where Papaw was born. The inside was used for storage. The kitchen was in the back and was tiny. The white house had a very large front porch. Sometimes Mamaw carried her peas and pecans to the white house porch because it had more shade with a better breeze. We’d join her there as well. Diagonally behind the white house was a big garden, two gas pumps, a barn, and a tractor shed. Papaw had a big, blue flatbed truck. I seem to remember the truck being used one year during “Trade Day” for a band’s stage. The flat bet truck was parked in the barn. Stairs led to a hay loft above. To the left were copies of “Time,” “National Geographic,” and “Reader’s Digest” magazines. Pecan trees were sprinkled throughout the yard in various places.

Another pasture was on the other side of the barns that was a hay field. The hay was rolled. The second crop learned that we could take turns standing on a hay roll and the rest of us could push. Walking on top of a moving hay roll was yet another fun game.

A hurricane came through at one point almost knocking down their pecan trees. The tree was left leaning with the root ball pushed up from the ground. After Papaw cleaned the limbs from the trunk, he left the trunk to keep growing. The angle of the trunk and what was left of one branch made a lounge chair of sorts. I sat on my perch reading a book or just thinking. It was a great little place to just be alone in my thoughts. Beverly Cleary was my favorite author.

The tractor shed housed Papaw’s “Cotton Picker,” his tractors, and his lawn mowers. In the afternoon Mamaw or Papaw traveled to the back place in the truck. That’s when I got to drive. Mamaw or papaw would have me practice parking around the hay rolls.

For the rest of the afternoon we rode bikes, swam in the pool, ate snacks, and helped Mamaw shell peas and pecans. In the evening we all ate a light supper: bowl of cereal, or maybe cornbread and milk. Papaw taught us to eat cornbread and milk. Then we’d watch Nick-At-Night: Mr. Ed, Green Acres are the shows I remember the most. Then off to the back bedroom to fall asleep, after of course telling one or two stories.

I agree, Switchfoot....a Beautiful Let Down it is.

In 2003, Switchfoot put out an album that was an almost immediate hit..."Beautiful Let Down." I can close my eyes and reminisce to the summer Lindsey Bizilia introduced songs that would describe in so many ways...me. I've spent so much of my life following strong personalities, but in the summer of 2004 I faced yet another moment of deciding "Who's the boss?" (a part of God's continual work of sanctification I think...because I seem to daily face this decision). In the midst of all of my insecurities I was either going to nod my chin like a bobble-head at every idea (in self-centered fear of rejection) or I was going to fix my face upon the Author of my faith and be "okay" with people thinking I was "weird" as a consequence. The change of heart resulted (and results) in this mindset: 

God is GOD;
Therefore, I cherish what He says.
I cherish what He says;
Therefore, I read/obey the Bible through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Simple but not simple. I spent the summer of 2004 crying out (literally into my pillow) to God. I wanted to know Him more and more and more...I can say He is faithful. The implications of the reality above are not easily embraced without utter acknowledgment of dependency on Him. I cherish my time in my little cozy spot with my Bible and pen, but taking His Word outside of the confines of my little spot...well its a beautiful let down...because I see my weaknesses...but I see His Glory. I see His strength working through me...in spite of me.

"May my foolish pride forever let me down"...and may I be awakened continually to the reality of God and what He says.

If you've never heard the song...or haven't heard it in a while...I posted it below!