A Year Ago Today

So many of these posts are for the sake of keeping an online journal. I've heard other friends say this, and for me it's become reality as well: this blog is basically Joshua's baby book. I have a keepsake box and a book, but I type so much quicker than I write.

This day last year I was VERY pregnant and so ready to meet our little boy face to face. How precious was the feeling of his movement inside my tummy. But I'll never forget Nathan pulling Joshua out of me and laying him on my tummy, his head was on my left side. His eyes were open and he wasn't crying until Nathan rubbed him down and he began SCREAMING. He has GOOD healthy lungs!

Here's what I wrote in my journal this time June 2012:

Father,
It's 3:13 am and I'm up again. We had a great time tonight and I'm glad Mama spent the night. I'm having contractions but I don't really know what my body is doing. Kelli and I are about the same dilated and are scheduled for induction Wednesday morning. Denise and Randy are fun to hear...they have to be excited and stressed at the same time. I pray for safe deliveries for Joshua and Reagan. Please fill me with your Spirit. Ezekiel 28:1-10   I must never forget that my life-anyone's life- is not in my hands. You are sovereign. You speak and it comes to be. I am nothing--I have no power. Any resources-any-beauty- is directly from You. By faith I proceed. By faith I prepare our home today. By faith I go to the doctor tomorrow, drop off our pets, shop at the store, and go to bed early. By faith I will go through the pain of childbirth . By faith I will bring Joshua home and be his mother.

And God is faithful. (and by grace I was given that blessed epidural and didn't have to go through the pain ;)  And one year later I'm still figuring out His will as I go.

Little man will be one year old in one week exactly. He's walking very well now. He's precious!